"Want to" doesn't equal "will"

I have had about 20 false starts to running this year. Seems I get a good start, miss a couple of runs, then before I know it 3-4 weeks has passed and I am starting over. I don't think I have over 100 miles in for this year. I miss running but can't seem to get a good steady flow going. I know once I get back in to some similance of shape that I will be more apt to making myself get out there even when other things come up. Guess I have to get over the ego thing of not being able to run any where near the speeds I could at one time and not being able to run 2 miles without walking.